Fetch I Want To Die But I Want To Eat Tteokbokki Compiled By Baek Se-hee Accessible In Publication
on I Want to Die But I Want to Eat Tteokbokki
the light of World Mental Health Day, . .
“Hanya ada satu 'aku' di dunia, Dengan begitu aku adalah sesuatu yang amat spesial, Diriku adalah sesuatu yang harus kujaga selamanya, Diriku adalah sesuatu yang harus kubantu secara perlahan, kutuntun selangkah demi selangkah dengan penuh kasih sayang dan kehangatan, Diriku adalah sesuatu yang butuh istirahat sesaat sambil menarik napas panjang atau terkadang butuh cambukan agar bisa bergerak ke depan, Aku percaya aku akan menjadi semakin bahagia jika aku semakin sering melihat ke dalam diriku sendiri, ” h.
Buku nonfiksi ini berisi rekapan percakapan antara si penulisyang menderita Distimiadengan psikiaternya selama prosesnya untuk bisa lebih menyayangi dirinya sendiri.
Terjemahannya bagus, isinya menarik, tapi memang sebaiknya buku ini secara perlahan dan tidak dibaca dalam sekali duduk, Jadi pastikan ada rehat di selasela membaca,
Saya juga sangat mengapresiasi prakata dari Dr, Jiemi Ardian bahwa selfdiagnosed itu tidak dianjurkan karena sangat mudah sekali bagi seseorang untuk melabeli kondisinya setelah membaca buku seperti ini.
“Pada akhirnya, buku ini berakhir bukan sebagai pertanyaan maupun jawaban, melainkan sebagai sebuah harapan, ” h.Thank you Bloomsbury, Edelweiss and Netgalley for the ARC, in exchange for an honest review,
The title and cover are excellent and I really wanted to like this book, but Im afraid it isnt for me.
I DNF at page. I had expected this to be more of a memoir of depression with a bit of humour as well the title and cover suggest at least that much but its really a selfhelp book, existing of written down therapy sessions.
I just couldnt connect. that was beautiful. namjoon recs Salah satu buku nonfiksi incaran tahun ini, Thank God, diterjemahkan dengan bagus pula,
Buatku pribadi, buku "sulit" dituntaskan, Bukan karena nggak bagus, tapi sesi tanyajawab penulis dan psikiater ini bikin perasaan nggak nyaman, Esai yang ditulis penulis ini mungkin sebenarnya dekat banget sama keseharian aku pribadi, Dan perasaan penulis yang dituangkan dalam buku ini mungkin merupakan pertanyaanpertanyaan yang selalu ada di benakku,
Salah satu buku tentang mental illness yang bagus, Tapi tulisan penulis yang lebih ke "ringkasan" dari sesi tanyajawab itu lebih membekas buatku,
Catatan teknis: Halaman warna pink atau ungu nggak nyaman banget dibaca, Apalagi yang full begitu huhu, Dan kadang banyak spasi renggang mungkin karena tipe dialog, beberapa kata yang nggak dipenggal bikin renggangnya jadi nggak nyaman dibaca, Selain itu, masih menemukan "rubah" di buku ini, haha,
Tapi kesimpulannya buku ini layak banget dibaca! :
Volume keduanya juga udah aku baca amp reviu: sitelink goodreads. com/review/show
.I am someone who is completely unique in this world,
someone I need to take care of for the rest of my life,
and therefore someone I need to help take each step forward,
warmly and patiently,
to allow to rest on some days and to encourage on others
Before choosing this quote, I chose another one.
A darker one.
But then I was afraid and changed it to a more uplifting one, Isnt that ironic for this kind of book
It consists of therapy sessions the author recorded and short texts on different topics between them.
Many of the things that were said were relatable to me, so I really liked reading about the journey the author took with their mental health.
:I try not to write overly harsh, critical and mean reviews, but to be very honest, I hated this book.
Having personally suffered from mental health issues myself, I was hopeful for this book, However, I found the writing disappointing, and the author immature, infuriating and insufferable, Some examples:
she got offended when a friend didn't seem to enjoy a book she recommended, and sent a scathing message to said friend, calling her "arrogant and exhausting"
she got annoyed when female friends and acquaintances praised her for being pretty, yet got jealous and unhappy when men didn't compliment her on her appearances
she seemed obsessed with seeking external validation and reasons, using mental health as a way to justify her actions and behaviour she seemed so eager to claim she had histrionic personality disorder, alcoholism and body dysmorphia
Overall, the book is really just snippets of conversation between her therapist and her, taperecorded, transcribed and stitched together with diaryesque musings from the "author" that concludes with some feelgood cliches.
If that's your cup of tea, then go for it, But to me, it just feels a tad trite, lacklustre, and lazy,
Nonetheless, I am grateful to the author for so bravely, generously and candidly sharing her experiences through this book, May she, and everyone else, find their light within the darkness, their own reasons for living and happiness, even if it's as simple as a plate of tteokbokki.
If you're looking for better books that are similarly related to mental health and/or therapy, I'd recommend Lori Gottlieb's sitelinkMaybe You Should Talk to Someone: A Therapist, Her Therapist, and Our Lives Revealed nonfiction.
For fiction novels about mental health that are perhaps less uplifting but darkly humorous and surprisingly relatable, try Sylvia Plath's sitelinkThe Bell Jar or Ottessa Moshfegh's sitelinkMy Year of Rest and Relaxation.
I really enjoyed this inside into a person's therapy, it does fulfill a curiosity I can't deny,
I also really liked reading about her own reflections on therapy and her life, constantly trying to get healthy and better and love herself.
At times I thought that she must be such an exhausting person to be around, but also thought it must be more exhausting to be her.
Highly recommend if you are interested in the topic of low selfesteem and judging or criticising others and yourself, sitelinkblog sitelinkthestorygraph sitelinkletterboxd sitelink tumblr sitelinkkofi
“I wonder about others like me, who seem totally fine on the outside but are rotting on the inside, where the rot is this vague state of being notfine and notdevastated at the same time.
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There was something about the title and cover of this book that brought to mind Ottessa Moshfeghs My Year of Rest and Relaxation and a line from Madame Bovary: She wanted both to die and to live in Paris.
Naturally, me being a fan of both of those novels, I found myself intrigued by I Want to Die But I Want to Eat Tteokbokki.
This is a relatively short read which is made up of the transcripts from the authors session with her psychiatrist over aweek period.
While there are occasional breaks in this patient/psychiatrist dialogue, these are brief, lasting one or two pages and consist of the author musing on the words of her psychiatrist or offering her own words of wisdom.
Now, on the one hand, I appreciated reading these sessions as they lead to discussions on selfesteem, depression, anxiety, peer pressure, ones desire to fit in and be liked, toxic relationships, etc.
Baeks worries and everyday tribulations will likely resonate with many millennials, While I appreciate the honesty that radiated from these sessions, and from her willingness to confront, assess, and critique aspects of herself, I did grow a tad bored by them.
I remember coming across a book i think it was a book where a character comments on how, most of the time, other peoples dreams do not strike us as interesting as our own ones.
Well, this is how I feel about this book, Baek, understandably, finds these sessions to be enlightening as through them she gains selfknowledge and a more nuanced understanding of her mental health, I did not.
As I said, I could certainly relate to some of the conversations they have around selfesteem and selfperception, but at the end of the
day, these sessions were tailored for Baek, and I couldnt help but feel a bit uneasy at being invited in.
Maybe because I have always associated therapists/psychiatrists with privacy, but there were several instances where I wanted to bow out and leave Baek some space.
Part of me wishes that this book could have taken only certain exchanges from her sessions, and incorporated these into longer pieces where the author considers the issues they discussed.
In short, I wanted to hear more from Baek, and less from her psychiatrist, If I were to record my hypothetical sessions with a therapist or whoever, I doubt anyone would want to read transcripts of it.
And if they did, well, thats kind of sus,
Anyway, jokes aside, this was by no means a bad book, I just think it could have benefitted from more original content ie miniessays/think pieces, .